I think I got it.

In my last post, I asked for a sign telling me what to do about the job thing.  Well, I got one!

On Thursday the 10th, I got my sign in the form of an e-mail.  And e-mail OFFER to be more specific.  It wasn’t exactly what I was hoping for but, it was close enough that I thought to myself: “You gotta be shitting me!!!” 

So, I’m almost 100% sure I’m staying local.  I haven’t signed any paperwork yet but, I’m pretty sure it’s official.  

Friday the 11th was my last day at the office (not officially because of the aforesaid lack of paperwork).  Imagine my excitement.  I was sohappy that I didn’t cry – not one tear.  And, if I’m going to be honest, I should probably mention that I’m a cryer when it comes to shit like this –  saying goodbye to people and places is a toughie for anyone who has a sliver for a heart I think. 

Well, apparently not me last Friday!  I tell you… I was so happy to be out of there that I just grabbed all my crap, hugged my good friend Sharon, said see you later to everyone else and practically ran out the door.  It was as if I was coming back to work on today.  Hahahahahahahah.

On another note, I spent the weekend in Lake Placid with my family.  It was our Third Annual Christmas Family Vacation.  Youpi.  It was great.  We rented a big cottage and chilled out all weekend.  I really needed a break.  We ate, played games, watched a Christmas movie, chatted and just took it easy all weekend.  (Pictures will follow when I get them from my Mom.)

My mother and I actually went into the village of Lake Placid to Adirondack Yarns to go check out what they had.  You know you have too much yarn when you walk out of a perfectly good yarn shop with NOTHING!!!  That’s right.  I bought nothing.  I still can’t believe it myself.  I looked at yarn, played with it, rubbed it up against my cheek, thought of things I could make with said yarn and walked out with zippo.  That’s what I call self-control!

Today was check-out.  I hate leaving a place.  I always get super-bummed out.  You would think that I would just learn to expect/accept it. 

BUT, truth be told, I feel totally lost today.  I’ve been “going to the office” for 10 years now.  All of a sudden, I don’t have to go.  Part of me wants to go jump on the bed and the other part of me needs a paper bag to hyper-ventilate in.  It’s a giant change and I’ll get used to it.  For today though, I’m completely freaked out!!!

To top it all off, Jacob has a girlfriend.  He’s 15.  It was bound to happen right?  That’s what I keep telling myself.  He’s not my baby anymore.  It’s a really tough one though.  I’m torn between being an understanding parent who accepts that she has to give her adolescent some room to grow and being a total tyrant/psycho who wants to chain her kid up in the basement and never let him leave the house.  I’m sure that I’ll find a balance between the two.  But, I told him that he had to give me some time to get used to this.  As a young mother, I can totally remember how a statement like that would have made me feel – like I was in prison!  I get that he’s excited about this and that he wants to spend all his time with this little hoochie who wants to corrupt my baby young lady… I DON’T CARE.  I’m in denial!!!

While all this has been happening, I’ve started a “Wurm” scar for Sharon with the wool I had left over from her hat.  Should have enough to make her a short one.  I also started another pair (that would be #6 I think) of Bella’s Mittens for my sister Mel.  I hope I don’t have to make another pair for a long time after this.  I also got to work on France’s February Lady for a long time today seeing as I didn’t have to rush back to the office.  Haha. 

A lot of changes all of a sudden.  I hope I can adjust in a timely fashion.

I’m going to knit.