I put Jacob on a plane on Monday. He’s with my sister and her husband in Las Vegas right now. They were supposed to be rock climbing in Bishop, California by now but it’s been raining.
I cried myself to sleep the night before he left. Why? I’m not sure. I think it’s because I’m starting to realize that he’s not a kid anymore. Maybe it’s because I’m starting to think about what my life will be like when he goes off to school. It’s really scary. Yes, I was worried that he would get lost in the terminal or that something would go wrong and I wouldn’t be there to fix it. BUT, the truth is, he’s a smart kid. He would figure it out and be just fine without me. I don’t think he needs me as much as I wish he did.
It’s a HUGE reality check for me.
I don’t like this part. I’m not READY for this part. I want him to stay little forever.
I’m not the type to get lonely. But, I miss Jacob something terrible. I know he’s having a fantastic time – which makes me feel a little better.
It just feels like something’s missing here….
How time flies! I can’t believe I haven’t read your blog in a few weeks. Well, you have made it through, since you are picking him up today. It will be nice to have him back home.